Grade 11.2

Hey Everyone!!! I want to begin post four by saying this, I love it out here! So far I have emphasized on the parts that have been not so great, but that is how I felt at the time. I just wanted to reinforce that for those of you who know me. I love this place and I am really glad we are here. :) Anyways, after the Australian boy I kind of fell into to this state of "whatever" haha. I had given up on boys (Boys are dumb, throw rocks at them :P JK). For about 4 months I really just hung out with Lacey and Jessica and helped them with their drama and exciting events etc. In March though, I really fell for this other boy. I met him in September on our bus and we talked every now and then, more often than not. I thought he was really cute but I didn't want that to be the reason I liked him, so I brushed it off. Little did I know I liked him a lot. When March came around I had finally realized that I thought about him all the time. So one night while I was thinking about him, I wrote a letter of confession. I didn't think I was actually going to give it to him , until I told Lacey and Jessica. They can convince me to do just about anything xD! So I did I brought it to school , but I was too chicken so Jessica gave it to him, but he knew it was from me before he read it. So third block Chemistry 30 rolls around, and I was so nervous I was shaking, literally. He looked at me but I just ducked away, blushing tremendously. Then he slipped me a note. It said "nice note". I was so surprised and happy all I could do was laugh and blush some more.  Lacey took it upon herself to ask one of his friends if he liked me and he said that he did, then she told me. After that I wanted to ask him if he actually did like me too, but I didn't want to be a pest or annoying or anything like that so I never did. Instead I wrote him two notes subtly hinting that he should tell me, but they were I guess too subtle because he didn't understand them. He actually said it kinda creeped him out >.< Way to go, huh? (this was in 3 weeks btw) We stopped talking for a little bit but it was like hide and seek. We caught each other looking at each other, all the time. This one time, I was in the gym with Lacey and I spun around her and glanced in the window of one of the offices and he was inside we just stared at each other for about 3 seconds and then I kept going. After that though, he stopped looking and talking to me. Then Lacey told me that he told another friend tat he didn't want a relationship, he wanted to go to college first (he was graduating). That was horrible, I still don't know why he just stopped all communication with me. It took me all summer to get over him, tbh I am not sure if I am even. I saw him the other day at my 4-H meeting, I wanted to talk to him but every time I looked he was talking to someone else. My mom said that he kept looking at me, now that I think of it he could have been looking at anyone in my general direction. Ah, well, it doesn't really matter now. I know that he was not meant for me, I guess God has other plans? That's all for this post! See ya!